Wednesday, May 01, 2013
I Am Alive! How Interesting!
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Sipping on beer #2 at 1707. Sip. Buzzing slightly. Just finished re-reading last week. Naughty methodology! And I was right about the music link. It 'stuck in my head' all week (almost) before being replaced by the 'perennial favorite,' Shina No Yoru (China Nights). My brain seems to have a mind of its own sometimes.
Oh, well... back to the subjects at hand: Esotericism and Mysticism. The Fourth Way (see previous posts for the link) is a complex book and not all of it appealed to me (only about 90%). I was most interested in 'Self-Remembering,' because it seemed to be a 'testable hypothesis.' I tried it and was immediately struck by the fact that I quickly 'forgot myself!' 'Damn! This looks like fun!' I began 'the project' by trying to 'self-remember' for limited periods of time. Shopping (for food) was a natural scenerio for the experiment, and I began at the super market. Could I do my shopping and 'remember myself' at the same time? Nope. I could do it for a while, but almost anything unusual would cause me to drop that dual awareness of 'shopping' and 'being alive in the moment.' I was always shocked by that point in time when I became aware that I had 'forgot I was alive.' Huh? How could I?!
I invented an unusual sensual experience to assist my 'self-remembering project': Women's Underpants. (I have been a big fan of women's underpants for many years. My favorite scenerio is when she has spread her legs 90 degrees and my left hand is 'clasped' around her crotch. (I also love to wear women's underpants. It's called 'a fetish.')) I would always wear women's underpants whenever I went shopping for food, and I would use the resulting 'sensations' as an aid to 'self-remembering:' 'I am alive!' 'How interesting!'
Sipping on beer #2 at 1707. Sip. Buzzing slightly. Just finished re-reading last week. Naughty methodology! And I was right about the music link. It 'stuck in my head' all week (almost) before being replaced by the 'perennial favorite,' Shina No Yoru (China Nights). My brain seems to have a mind of its own sometimes.
Oh, well... back to the subjects at hand: Esotericism and Mysticism. The Fourth Way (see previous posts for the link) is a complex book and not all of it appealed to me (only about 90%). I was most interested in 'Self-Remembering,' because it seemed to be a 'testable hypothesis.' I tried it and was immediately struck by the fact that I quickly 'forgot myself!' 'Damn! This looks like fun!' I began 'the project' by trying to 'self-remember' for limited periods of time. Shopping (for food) was a natural scenerio for the experiment, and I began at the super market. Could I do my shopping and 'remember myself' at the same time? Nope. I could do it for a while, but almost anything unusual would cause me to drop that dual awareness of 'shopping' and 'being alive in the moment.' I was always shocked by that point in time when I became aware that I had 'forgot I was alive.' Huh? How could I?!
I invented an unusual sensual experience to assist my 'self-remembering project': Women's Underpants. (I have been a big fan of women's underpants for many years. My favorite scenerio is when she has spread her legs 90 degrees and my left hand is 'clasped' around her crotch. (I also love to wear women's underpants. It's called 'a fetish.')) I would always wear women's underpants whenever I went shopping for food, and I would use the resulting 'sensations' as an aid to 'self-remembering:' 'I am alive!' 'How interesting!'
